February 4th, 2010 by Brian Steen

Its weird to think that 28 years ago today I entered the world and started the ride. And what a ride it as been. Today Im giving my self a birthday present. I may get a massage, Im making a tshirt for my night out on the town Satruday and who knows what else. Anyways. Enjoy the day. Blessings!

January 2nd, 2010 by Brian Steen

I know Im a day late, give me a break. May your 2010 be better than your 2009. May your days be merry, may your year be full of joy and no sadness, and may your life be full of love! Happy 2010.

October 26th, 2009 by Brian Steen

Ok so Im so pissed off. Facebook has been having problems after problems after problems. I got great pictures from this last weekend and I cant post them. What the hell?

October 1st, 2009 by Brian Steen

Here are the awaited pictures of my apartment. I love it and feel right at home in the city. It never quiets down here and there is tons of life. I love it. Its 12 am and there are still cars driving down 1st Ave where my windows face(1st Ave is between my building and the Market). I love it and hope that some of you come and visit me soon.

This is a new start for me. The hell of the last few months is over. I wish those that have meant me harm and not wished well for me the best. To those who cant let me live my life, I choose to let you live yours, hoping that you let me live mine. To all of those that abandoned me when I made decisions in my life I feel I need to release you from the pain and shame of trying to choose someone else’s path. To those who used religion as a way to blackmail me or to put me down, I forgive you and now understand that that was not true religion, but manipulation at its best. You are forgiven, go in peace, love how you only know how to love, and let life live its own path. May you be blessed and get everything you have ever hopped for. To the church that I was attending, I urge you to watch those who you have put in high regard, they may not be as close to the top as you think.

September 11th, 2009 by Brian Steen

Howdy All,
here are a few thoughts for today. If you into reading, I know some of you are, please take a look at my friend Crystals blog: http://www.crystalperspective.blogspot.com/. She reads A LOT and writes reviews about her books. Its an awesome blog and you will really enjoy her imput.
Also take a chance as summer ends to get out of the house and enjoy the few nice days we have left. Winter will be upon us soon enough so get out and enjoy the weather as we can.
Next, watch out for the Swine Flu! I know there were over 100 cases of it at the gamer convention this last weekend and I know its spreading around Seattle…. If you think about it, wash your hands as much as possible, use disinfectant on your desk and whatever anyone else touches, and keep a bottle of hand sanitizer in your bag. Use it when you get on the bus, touch something someone else has touched or anything like that. I want my friend healthy!
Also if your in the Seattle area give me a shout. Im hopefully moving in starting Monday and would love to show you all my new apartment and then head to the Market to walk around.

Have an awesome weekend. Im off today and tomorrow, then back at it Sunday night!

BLESS YOU ALL!

September 7th, 2009 by Brian Steen

Yeah I know I just posted but I wanted to post this list for ya. Its my own personal list of what Ive learned since coming out of the closet and becoming who I really am.

1. The drinks are really srong at gay clubs.
2. Its more important to be happy then to make others happy. Live your life and tell everyone else to jump off a bridge.
3. The friends that I have now are the ones who really stuck by me. They are real friends and I love them all.
4. If you love to dance, then dance. Dont wait for someone to ask you, just jump on it. Someone will join you.
5. The Sisters of Prepedual Indulgence are real and are great. They are the best buncgh of Nuns Ive ever meet and they stick by you no matter what.
6. You dont have to party every night. Party with a purpose.
7. Not every church hates homosexuals. There are some that do and they give everyone a bad rap. The church I was a part of when I came out hates homosexuals, and they hate me. I wish the best and I want to make it public that I forgive them for they way theyve treated me and others that have left. I am happy. Please let me be happy. Ive moved on with my life, but have you.
8. Life life to the fullest. Dont loose a moment of your life.
9. Pay it forward. If someone does something nice for you, do something nice for them. Its the golden rule.
10. If you let the cute boy your dancing with suck on your neck he will leave a hickey and then everyone will notice, EVERYONE!

September 7th, 2009 by Brian Steen

“Nobody can go back and start a new begining, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.”

This is now my life quote. I fee that it really puts a finger on what my life is about now. I started a job with the Plymouth Housing Group and am working at the Gatewood Hotel. Its a section 8 housing and I love it. I love working the people and love the location, its right across the street from Pike Place Market on 1st and Pine. Its a great place and hopefully Ill be moving in soon. My 3rd floor apartment has a view of the water and is very large. Anyways. This is my new begining and I love it. I cant change what the last few years have brought, but I can choose to let the ending be what I choose, and I choose a great ending.

August 10th, 2009 by Brian Steen

So I saw this today: “When do I get to vote on your marriage”
And it made me really think, when do I get to vote on your life or your marriage or your choices, when do I get to vote on who you fall in love with, when do I get to vote on where you live or what you do with your life. America is the land of the free and the home of teh brave. People came here to that we could have freedom. So lets have the freedom to be who we were created to be, and let people be free, let people live, and let people be free. There, theres my rant for the day. Love you all. Hope that you still love me and accept me.

July 7th, 2009 by Brian Steen

So I’m back home and really tired. I think its gonna be an early bed time tonight. The memorial service was really nice yesterday and I know moms in a better place, but its still hard. Everyone has been so great with the exception of some people, who have said they want nothing to do with me who have nothing better to do than go through my life and find reasons to make it miserable. If your reading this and you know who you are, please leave me alone. You want me out of your life, I want to be out of your life, just let me know. Please don’t make my life miserable. Your controlling, your manipulative, and your a bully. Leave me alone and I will leave you alone.

July 2nd, 2009 by Brian Steen

Today I got to do something that no 27 year old should have to do . I sat in a hospital room at Harborview in Seattle and watched my mother pass away. I am so thankful for my moms life. She was such an awesome woman and she totally blessed all that knew her. I am so thankful for her. As I sit here a flood of emotions is rolling back and i cant seem to contain it. I love my mom and am so glad that I know where she is now. She always sang a song about walking with Jesus in the garden while the dew is still on the roses. She gets to walk with him right now and be just with him. I like that think of her dancing with the Desire of the Ages and sing with the Angel Choir. I loved my mom and miss her tons. Proverbs 31 says what a woman should be. My mom was many if not all of the atrubites. She was loving, kind and respectful, and as her child I rise up and call her blessed and loved. She is and will always be the queen of my heart. No woman can ever replace my mom.

MOM: I love you and miss you. I know it was your time to go and I fully replease you into the arms of Jesus. He loves you more than I could ever imagine. I love you and miss you and I will see you again.