Death of my mom

July 2nd, 2009 by Brian Steen

Today I got to do something that no 27 year old should have to do . I sat in a hospital room at Harborview in Seattle and watched my mother pass away. I am so thankful for my moms life. She was such an awesome woman and she totally blessed all that knew her. I am so thankful for her. As I sit here a flood of emotions is rolling back and i cant seem to contain it. I love my mom and am so glad that I know where she is now. She always sang a song about walking with Jesus in the garden while the dew is still on the roses. She gets to walk with him right now and be just with him. I like that think of her dancing with the Desire of the Ages and sing with the Angel Choir. I loved my mom and miss her tons. Proverbs 31 says what a woman should be. My mom was many if not all of the atrubites. She was loving, kind and respectful, and as her child I rise up and call her blessed and loved. She is and will always be the queen of my heart. No woman can ever replace my mom.

MOM: I love you and miss you. I know it was your time to go and I fully replease you into the arms of Jesus. He loves you more than I could ever imagine. I love you and miss you and I will see you again.

Night 1 of Pride

June 27th, 2009 by Brian Steen

Here I am its 8:15 am and Im at my cousins house. Last night was the kick off of Pride Weekend 2009 in Seattle. I got the chance first thing to go out to dinner with my cousin Eli and his great girlfriend, Alex, who are still in bed asleep, where I should be. Anyways…… We went to Pams Kitchen in the University district. Its a great Jamaican place that has awesome food. I highly recommend it, but its pretty high in the price range. After that I dropped them off at a concert in Ballard and I went to R Place on Capital Hill There always have a show on Friday Nights. This week it was Hair Spray. Totally Freaking Rocking!!! Loved it. Then we danced the night away. It was tons of fun, and tonight is another night. I love my life, I am so gald that I get to do this and have fun being me. Blessings to you all. If your in the Seattle area, lets get together soon.

Spiritual Abuse: Lets take a look

June 25th, 2009 by Brian Steen

Here is a great list of things to ponder if your a part of a church that has a leader that you feel may be abusing you. Go through the list, check it. Remember there is always help.
1. Apotheosis of the leadership — exalting them to God-like status in and over the group;
2. Multi-level authority/government hierarchy;
3. Absolute authority of the leadership;
4. No real accountability of the leadership to the corporate body;
5. Hand-picked sub-leaders, based on their demonstration of submissiveness to the ultimate leader rather than on the basis of their leadership skills, spirituality, and anointing and appointment by God;
6. Pervasive abuse and misuse of authority in personal dealings with members;
7. Paranoia and insecurity by the leaders;
8. Abuse, misuse, and inordinate incidence of “church discipline;”
9. Personal materialism, covetousness, and self-aggrandizement by the leaders;
10. Members and/or sub-leaders must make a “spiritual covenant,” sometimes a signed covenant agreement, pledging their total commitment and financial support to the leadership and church/ministry;
11. Partitioning of the group into smaller groups that are led by internally “raised up” lay-leaders who have not been anointed or appointed by God for leadership within the church;
12. Financial exploitation and enslavement of the members;
13. Inordinate attention to maintaining the public “image” of the ministry;
14. Doctrinal demeanment and devaluation — the requisite of espousing and teaching “sound doctrine” is demeaned and devalued;
15. Theological incompetency by the leadership, especially with respect to the rules of hermeneutics and Bible exegesis employed in the formulation of doctrine, giving license to twisting and adulteration of Scripture in order to provide proof-texts for unorthodox and invented doctrines;
16. Spiritualism, mysticism, and unproven doctrines;
17. Abuse and misuse of prophetic giftings as a means to dominate and intimidate;
18. Devaluation, disallowance, disregard, and displacement of the true Fivefold Ministry within the church;
19. De facto legalism, or works mentality, and its resulting loss of the “joy of salvation,” though “freedom” is forever preached from the pulpit and the church is constantly touted as being a “safe church” by the leadership;
20. Esotericism — hidden agendas and requirements revealed to members only as they successfully advance through various stages of “spiritual enlightenment,” i.e., unorthodox, unproven indigenous doctrines;
21. Isolationism — corporate and individual, especially with respect to exposure to outside ministry sources;
22. Performance-based approval and promotion system of members predicated on “proven” “loyalty” (i.e., submission) to the leadership;
23. Devaluation, suppression, and non-recognition of members’ bona fide God-given talents, abilities, gifts, callings, and anointing, as a means of subjugation;
24. Requiring members to perform menial tasks, such as cleaning toilets, setting up chairs, and acting as the leader’s personal valet or slave, as a supposed means to humble them and teach them to “obey their leaders;”
25. Constant indoctrination with a “group” or “family” mentality that impels members to exalt the corporate “life” and goals of the church-group over their personal goals, callings, and objectives;
26. Members are psychologically traumatized and indoctrinated with numerous improper fears and phobias aimed at keeping them reeling in diffidence and an over-dependence or co-dependence on their leaders and the corporate group;
27. Corporately, there eventually develops an inordinately high incidence of financial, marital, moral, psychological, mental, emotional, and medical problems, including sudden deaths and contraction of “incurable” and “unknown” diseases;
28. Lack of true personal spiritual growth and development, especially in terms of genuine faith and experiencing the abounding grace, forgiveness, goodness, blessings, kindness, and agape-love of God;
29. Members are required to obtain the approval or “witness” of their leader(s) for decisions regarding personal matters;
30. Frequent preaching from the pulpit regarding not getting out from under the “spiritual covering” of the leadership;
31. Members departing without the prior permission and blessing of the leadership leave the group under a cloud of manufactured suspicion, shame, and slander;
32. Horror stories frequently told by leaders about individuals or families who left the group without the prior permission and blessing of the leadership, and the terrible consequences and curses they suffered as a result;
33. Departing members often suffer from various psychological problems and display the classic symptoms associated with Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD).

Things I’ve learned in my short life

June 22nd, 2009 by Brian Steen

1. Family is the best thing ever, you sometimes get to choose who you call family, choose wisely, I did with some. Lisa Phelps, Timm Hall and others. Some I didn’t.
2. Never do any work for someone without a contract. You can do volunteer work, but do it with a contract.
3. People can turn on you like the change of socks. There is always a hope that they won’t but just in case, remember to always cover your butt, no matter how large it is.
4. Remember that if someone says “no one has done more stuff for you than me” or if they say “you have a real pride problem” the correct answer is, “there have been a lot of people that have done more for me and if you think this way, you have the pride problem”
5. The friends you meet in college will be the friends that stick with you through the tough times. I love you Marshall, Jennifer, Matt, Lindsey, Lindsay and others.
6. Be true to who you are. Don’t let anyone ever tell you who you are or what you like or don’t like. God loves you no matter what, remember that.
7. Life is like a box of chocolates, you will get a variety, remember to take them with stride and enjoy the flavor.
8. Play hard, remember you only have one life, but be smart when you play, have friends around you to keep you from doing stupid stuff.
9. Be careful who you tell your deepest secrets to. Sometime they will use them against you. Confide in only those you you really, really trust, that way you will know they will keep your secret, or better yet keep no secrets.
10. Make your own list of what you’ve learned in life. Post it here as a comment. Id love to read it and gain experience from you.

Blessings Friends, remember enjoy the journey no matter what it looks like.

Brian

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Crap

June 22nd, 2009 by Brian Steen

Why do people think they can push others around and why do Christians not act like Christians?

A Fathers Day reminder

June 21st, 2009 by Brian Steen

Happy Fathers Day to all the dads out there. I just wanted to take a few seconds of your time to remind all of the fathers out there, especially the pastors that call themselves fathers that it doesn’t matter what your kids do, there still your kids. They still need to be accepted by you and loved by you. Please dont throw away your kids when they do things that you don’t agree with. There still your kids. Remember its their life to live and they have to make their own decisions. Isn’t that what you raised them to do…. Even if you don’t agree with the decisions?

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And some people just are jerks

June 20th, 2009 by Brian Steen

Getting the chance to find out who you really are has its drawbacks at times. There are those who are real jerks that only want you to be the way they want you to be. Its really quite sad, and really makes you think, who do I want in my life and why? Do I want that person to really be my friend or do I want them to just screw off and go away. I have a lot of people in my life that I want there and need there and then there’s the people that you meet that rub you the wrong way and that you need to just let go and get them out of your zone.

Family…. its a great thing

June 16th, 2009 by Brian Steen

Here we are. Its Tuesday morning, Im awake by 7 which is a miracle in itself and Im sitting here thinking about family…. should be working on logos and webpages which are due soon, but family it is. Why is it that everyone says you get to choose your friends and not your family? I get to choose both. My family is awesome, well most of the time. Were like most families, we get a long most of the time, we laugh a lot and we really deep down inside love each other. A few weeks ago I was told by someone I was working for that he had done more for me than my family had ever done. You sir were mistaken. My family has loved me through my mood swings, loved me through the changes in my life, which you were not willing to do, though some are having a hard time accepting it, but there is still love. And then there are the friends that I get to choose as my family. You all totally rock. I have a lot of great people in my life and live it. Anyways the 2nd cup of coffee is calling my name.

Cheers

Im awake

June 14th, 2009 by Brian Steen

So Im starting to hate the end of school.  All the homework and stuff.  I was working on homework, doing job applications and other stuff until 1 am last night at my freind Jennifers house. Which by the way Jennifer is totally awesome.  If you need a webpage, go to her.  What a way to spend a Saturday night…… Anyway.  Its sunday, I got more homework to do.  Im selling a couple things, need the extra money so if your looking for a DVD player, the P90X workout series, Publisher Pro for WIndows XP, tons of Light house crap and entry level Kodak camera or some car speakers, let me know.  I would love to get rid of them.

Blessings everyone.  Enjoy your Sunday.

Brian

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June 10th, 2009 by Brian Steen

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